this would be the greatest thing i've ever done
if only i could muster up the courage
the freckles on your shoulders never looked so nice
the freckles on your chest never looked so inviting
i am nervous i am tense i am alarmed i am on full alert
who knows what's happening next
who know what i'll say probably the wrong thing
it's always the wrong thing but still i pray
i dont alienate you too far
i need at least one friend
the rest left me or rather; i left them
but that's the way it goes

I was born a biologist but raised a worry wart
worried my father would fall out of that plane when i was 4
you see i didnt understand physics or gravity
2 things i still struggle with today
you see i would have worried about a crash
i should have worried about the lash of a belt against my back
i was never beat i just like to make up facts
oh there i go embarrassing myself again
i put the "ass" in embarrass

i am a loser i am a star
my parents hope that i go far
but i am not so sure and sometimes i think about
just living in my mom's basement cause i'm poor
poor not in the pockets but in the brain
forced inside a picture for which the frame is
much too tall and i am much too short

or something like that

there's a saying that we either sink or swim
well i think i just wanna float
go where the current takes me
and sleep til my alarm wakes me
although i'm known to talk more when i sleep
but i am awake now and i feel like talking til i'm
sore in the throat if you're willing to listen
but i will talk either way cause i'm just that arrogant of a person

i feel like walking around the block
i feel like bothering you until you talk
and give me everything i need oh how i wish to see
your words bleed of truth and honesty like i've never
lied to you i would never lie to you
of course not
but now a coarse knot has tied itself in my brain
and it loves to drive me insane
such that it cannot see the road
i̶ ̶a̶m̶ ̶t̶o̶l̶d̶ ̶t̶o̶ ̶s̶i̶n̶k̶ ̶o̶r̶ ̶s̶w̶i̶m̶,̶ ̶b̶u̶t̶ ̶d̶a̶m̶n̶ ̶i̶t̶,̶
i̶ ̶t̶h̶i̶n̶k̶ ̶i̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶f̶l̶o̶a̶t̶
such that it does not know what it's told
to slow down, to turn left, or to veer to the right a little
it is driving right in the middle
between one way and the other
but i continue to struggle to pull that wheel in the right lane
take control of my right brain and fight the left til
i've got nothing left
and i have got nothing left
(except this)

There's a saying that we either sink or swim
well i think i just wanna float